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[09 Oct 2007|11:36pm] |
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I don't even know where to begin with this. Well I'm in my third year of college, about to change my fucking major again. Working on broken cars my whole life=terrible idea. I don't know what the fuck I'm gonna do. I sometimes think "I'll just say fuck school, and work at Publix till I can be a manager!" but fuck that. I don't want to work 50 hours a week at a grocery store as someone I'm not. I want to get back into photography and take the classes, but what happens in two years? I finish a two year degree after five years of college and then what? What if I still can't make enough to get by comfortably? Does this shit ever end? I suppose the kids who went away for college and actually applied themselves are doing okay? I realized lately I stress myself out about little things that don't mean shit in the big picture in a whole, but I can't even see the big picture! I get so overwhelmed with figuring out what I'm gonna do that I just put off all my homework for class and just won't do it. I can't study and do homework for some shit I don't even want to wake up for. I'm moving out soon which should be pretty rad, I just need to make it through this semester. I don't want to be like the servers I worked with at Takeya, 27 still in school, still clueless. I'd go in the military but I can't leave my brother/family/friends for 4 years, no way.
I'm thinking of going to see someone to help me get my life together.
And on top of everything that's fucked, the girl(first I've really, really liked in a long time) who claimed she loved me and all that bullshit, who was the only thing I looked foward to everyday, broke up with me a week or so ago, and I just found out the whole relationship was basically a fucking lie.
Awesome.
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| its been some time Mr. Livejournal |
[03 Jul 2007|10:42am] |
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Have you ever wanted to tell someone you loved them.... but can't? Not because its bullshit or something but because... you don't want to be wrong? I mean I like to think I know what love is, but who knows really? Alls I know is I'm really falling for this girl now, and I can't spend enough time with her. It's around five-six months we've been talking/seeing each other, but I feel like its finally taking off...
My brother was telling me there's this girl he's talking to and its funny because some of his friends don't like her of whatever, but like I told him to just do what makes him happy. Thats all we can do right? I mean I love my friends to death, and some of them might not like who I'm talking to, but who cares? If someones doesn't want to see you happy, are they really a "friend"? I mean to an extent you're friends can be right, but sometimes its just rediculous how people are. I've started noticing lately how a lot of people around me need to open their eyes, worry about their own shit, and get real.
and I changed my major... again.... to auto-mechanics at ATC. So hopefully in a year and a half I'll be done with school and can start working a real job. I just want to finish that shit, move out, and get my s2000.
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| new poison the well is good. |
[19 Apr 2007|10:07am] |
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anyone have a sega genesis emulator with roms I can get? I need them desperatly so I can get this piece I wanna start on my leg going.
fuck I wanna go to Rock the Bells in NY, but thats a lot $. Plus I want my leg done and some more on my arm by summers end... Then there's the suspension parts I want for my car fuck why can't I find a bag of money.
hmm what else is new.... work is boring but its better than stressing out in a resturant all the time. The girl I'm talking to, I still can't figure out. I spent 6 hours last Sunday skating around downtown/listening to music/taking pics, then driving to Ponce and just walking around doing the same, by myself. I've been feeling more secluded from my friends than ever before as of recently, not sure if its good or bad, I mean I'm not saying that I don't want to be around them more, I've just become more appreciative of being alone from time to time? I've been reading a lot on Zen Buddhism the past few months, a lot of that shit makes sense but don't take my word for it... It's gotten me doing a lot of thinking that I can't really spill into text.... I mean, that is the point of it all to get you thinking/figure shit out, but damn. I'm pretty stoked on starting school again in the fall, taking two photo classes and art appreciation, def looking foward to learning more/get better at taking pics. Hmm, wonder if World Religion is gonna be available still in the spring? I'd like to take that or maybe Philosophy. We'll see.
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[09 Apr 2007|12:20am] |
"I gotta say it was a good day."
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[22 Feb 2007|04:32pm] |
yeah I'm selling my car, $11k obo.
-'01 Acura Integra GSR
-perfect paint, never wrecked, perfect black leather interior
-runs perfect
-Function/Form coilovers/LCA's
-OEM ITR Front lip, and OEM VIS style CF hood
-brand new Kumho 711 tires
pics:
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[14 Feb 2007|01:22am] |
I met a new girl, its awesome.
oh and random pics from today:
First things first man, you fuckin' with the worst, I be stickin' pins in your head like a fuckin' nurse. - RIP ODB.
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[28 Jan 2007|11:20pm] |
I'm not LJ cutting this because I doubt anyone even checks this shit anymore.
I'm pretty sure I'm going back to dbcc in the fall for photography.
I work at publix now doing stock, its pretty tight. I like it way more than any other jobs I've had.
Oh yeah, Smokin' Aces was amazing.
Leave me comments if you still check livejournal.
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| Christmas sales rule. |
[19 Dec 2006|11:28pm] |
today I bought:
baller ass G-Unit jacket (MSRP $125) = $60
white reeboks (MSRP $70) = $20
Oneil windbreaker (MSRP $60) = $20
RL polo jeans (MSRP $50) = $25
and DVD "Just for Kicks" documentary on hip hop and shoes =)
can't forget about these shoes my brother got hahahahaha:
I can't wait to get home.
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| for real. |
[22 Nov 2006|10:05am] |
You people need to quit bitching about realationships and mishaps.
Get over it, quit posting about it. Move on. Get some new friends, and don't date shitty people.
Save the drama fo yo mama.
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[01 Nov 2006|10:50pm] |
2004drug . . fucking gay bitch . . those are the kind of people that make sick they need to clean up there act and fucking quit, i cant understand why they do that shit but I wont stand for it! blow that smoke in my face god knows what Il do! now in my life ive seen some fucked up shit but nothing is more fucked up than seeing half of the worlds teenagers smoking their lives away and why? there is no reason thats the sick part . . . people who think its kool are fucking wrong if you smoke you might as well poor acid in your asshole because that is about as stupid as smoking.
And any drugs are stupid . . drugs depress people and they are mindless nothings
thats now how we were ment to live people that are depressed need to get over with it because whatever is done is fucking done
I see it the way it should be! People need to live there life to the fullest.have fun and love your life. Even if there are a couple of flaws its not worth killing yourself or making a big deal out of it! dont be a fucking EMO! Be crazy be fun be happy take a good look at yourself and think . . what are you gonna live for? who do you wanna be? where will you be in the next year? Ill tell ya one thing most of the poeple my age who smoke r do drugs within a year they are either striving on their shitty ass drugs or they are in jail or they are fucking dead.
so please whoever reads this thik about your life. think about how to make it better. always think positive and things can always get better. To many people have wasted lives. Dont be one of them.
thank you. sXe-the edge is strong
-Steven Belisle 2004
damn I miss that kid///
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| need a job? |
[03 Oct 2006|11:07pm] |
So my ex-Takeya manager, Phil, is opening his own restuarant called "Ronin" over on ISB across from Atlantic Sounds on the west side of Beach street. We need more servers so come apply.
They're gonna be open lunch and dinner.
It's all sushi and kitchen dinners, its like a blend of asian/american/hispanic mixed style food. Supposed to be opening Friday night, but probably sometime this coming week at latest.
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[03 Oct 2006|02:35am] |
Is the not the most ballin' pic ever?
who can deny it?
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[03 Oct 2006|02:32am] |
I fuckin' hate livejournal... I just made a post with like 20 pics in it, and that shit didn't work because this gay new formatting shit and I don't feel like redoing it fuck it.
someone buy my camera... $350 w/ 1 gig stick.
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